I’m sometimes feeling like this whole process, whatever it is, is just too much to bear. I had such a day today.
This was supposed to be a mocha day, but when the day started I realized that there were several loads of laundry items I “needed” to do. Won’t go into that here, but before I knew what was happening, I felt this strong surge of “tiredness” going through my body. So after a couple loads, I went to take a nap.
Then I got up again and went on a night time walk in the 32 degree night. Although that was very refreshing, I still felt “drawn out”.
There’s part of me that is very uncomfortable with my living situation, and I keep trying to “make peace” with the idea that I’m here through the winter, that I’m here to help ground the Higher Energies into the planet from this location, that it is necessary for me to be here due to my “roots” here in the Midwest, and so on.
I’m also feeling very uncomfortable seeing all of the “mask me up” and “jab me up” (Scotty) insanity. Particularly here, and when I view it in Hawaii.
I’m feeling uncomfortable with not know when or how or if I will be leaving this house, and what the h— am I going to do with moving my things to the next location (which I’m presuming there is one).
I’m also feeling very uncomfortable with the notion that sometimes pops in, that maybe this will “never get better” (even though I do not believe that).
I just don’t know a lot of things. I’m having challenges watching and listening to the 5,748,498 video makers and bloggers and reporters and Telegrammers that all have their own intel and it sucks you into watching all of it (I know, that’s only if I let it).
I’m often feeling “lost and alone” in this mission here (and I’m saying that it’s a “mission”), even though I’ve accepted it as my mission.
And today I just felt extremely “sick and tired” of waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for outer things to “loosen up”, for outer people to “wake up”, and for this whole planet to just “break out” of the fear paradigm that’s exhibited by all the tonnes and tonnes of people who still mask up and vax up.
Maybe it’s just me. But today, I’d had it.
So with that, I’ll just add, “Stay in the Light, even though I may be PO’d about a lot of stuff I see happening out there, and in here”.
That’s all for now. Thank you for your patience, with me.
Aloha,
Kp