Kp Message 11-20-19… “Tipping Point” (and, no, this is nothing to do with the planet)

I’d just about had it today.

This and that (small things) happening today, challenges with Mom and her schedule, etc. Then there were other things to do, I looked at some photos of my Hawaii place my landlord had sent (so I could ID what I wanted shipped over), felt some pangs of leaving the place (but mostly the “simplicity” of my life there), then prepare take out garbage and recycle bins (big a$$ buckets on wheels), which I had trouble controlling… Finally I just got totally pissed off and left the house and took a walk around the block. All the while noticing that I was in a “standard-normal” type neighborhood, standard rectangular houses, typical 70s-80s style structures, and I was feeling just PISSED to be IN IT ALL!!!

THIS IS NOT WHO I AM. And honestly, I can’t stand the “normal-ness” of it all.

I know I’m here to help my father. I know I’m here to help my mother. I know I’m here to be present at this critical juncture of their lives. And I know I’m here for many reasons I’m not yet quite aware of.

Part of me does NOT want to be here. But the deeper I AM of me knows it is an important phase in my own Inner Unfoldment.

The “tipping point” part of the deal is that the daily every day it’s always the same and I have no space to be away for a day because I have to prepare lunch for father at noon, then be back so I can prepare dinner for father at 5, and help him to bed (sometimes) in the evening.

The “tipping point” was that I knew I had to work out a system with others to take care of Dad’s needs for at least one full day every so often, so I can get the h— away from this big a$$ house in this “standard-normal” type neighborhood, with its standard (and extremely boring, to me) rectangular houses, with perfect lawns and standard roads and 2.25 children in every house.

So that’s what I’m going to do. Set it up so at least one full day every so often is mine. I deserve it.

Aloha to all.
Kp