What’s Going on with my Desire? Or lack thereof??

Take from this message what you will.

I can’t tell you what my inner self feels like right now but I’ll try. It’s just that I have not any desire for anything. No desire to do anything, no desire to follow anything, no desire to go out and get a job, no desire to go and play music for people, no desire to have anything to do with any part of this 3D human world anymore. Nothing.

It’s like being nothing, being in nothing, being of nothing, being for nothing, being against nothing. Just NOTHING.

I have no desires at all right now. Nothing. When I lie in bed with my cats, just stroking their fur and enjoying their purrings, that’s enough for me. When I take a long walk and feel the sun on my skin and see the blue ocean down below, that’s enough for me. When I ride down to town and sip a mocha at Java on the Rock and watch the dolphins jump and play, that’s enough for me.

According to standard earth ways, this is clearly not normal. According to what I’ve done in the past, this is clearly not normal. According to what shows up on the TV or in the newspapers, this is clearly not normal. According to many metaphysical or “What Color is your Parachute” type of books, this is clearly not normal. According to people who say, “But you’re just sitting back and letting everyone else do the work in this world”, this is clearly not normal.

So the only conclusion I can make here is that I, and my life, are clearly not normal.